PC-BSD Babe


Head Like A Hole

 

I know I haven’t written in a really long time and I feel that it deserves an explanation. The truth is my mind has been so preoccupied with useless garbage lately, that it has done nothing for me other than unmotivate me in every single way.

 

 

An old friend asked me recently, what my dream job was. I said, a few things come to mind, Assistant Director, Casting Director, Playboy Editor and/or Playboy Casting. Then he said, sO basically you want to contribute to the useless businesses that do nothing for the good of humanity? I said to myself, Well I never though about it that way, and it got me thinking… he’s absolutely right., I’d be just another one of those useless people, occupying our world. It wasn’t always that way though. Before all the superficial garbage filled my head, I wanted to be a writer, major in history and political science, and make a difference in the current laws. My main motivation for this was when I found out that there is no justice in cases of rape victims. Victims of rape have to pay 1,000 to have investigators test the DNA Rape kits to find their rapist.  this of course fueled my anger among many other things and I became determined to do something about it, but as time went on my focus on changing the fucked up Rape kit situation has completely shifted into changing my appearance. As I started to conform more and more to “people’s standards”, I became unmindful to whats really important, and now I feel nothing but guilt and confusion. When I think of all the thousands I will spend on myself, I realize That everyday I become more like the people I despise and I really really don’t want to be one of them. I don’t want to be another waste of a human being. For the longest time I’ve forgotten my cause, my purpose of living, my true identity. All which has been buried deep under layers of superficial priorities that mean absolutely nothing.

In the end we die alone and lose everything, our looks, our houses, and our money. If this is the kind of stuff I  spend my life chasing after, in the end I’ll be disappointed. Material possessions exist only on earth. So for all of you wealthy bastards that spend a lifetime building your empire. Well you can keep all that money, and when you die you will miss your money and will not want to let go. You’ll never be at peace and hence created your own hell.

As for me, my downfall is vanity. I’ve read over 300 fashion magazines in the past, played with Barbie, watched Baywatch as a kid, and am constantly bombarded by images of gorgeous women. I can’t escape it, it’s everywhere. How could I not feel inferior. These feelings are very real despite what other people tell me and reasurre me. I know that it’s the same for many other young women too. It’s just sad to see so many women exert so much time and energy for such a shallow cause. I feel powerless.

none of this really matters

I’m becoming less defined as days go by
Fading away
And well you might say
I’m losing focus
Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself
Sometimes I think I can see right through myself
Sometimes I can see right through myself

Less concerned about fitting into the world
Your world that is
Cause it doesn’t really matter anymore
No it doesn’t really matter anymore
None of this really matters anymore
Yes I am alone but then again I always was
As far back as I can tell
I think maybe it’s because
Because you were never really real to begin with
I just made you up to hurt myself

and it worked

Now I am somewhere I am not supposed to be,

and I can see things I know I really shouldn’t see
And now I know why, now I know why
Things aren’t as pretty on the inside

One fantastic artist - 25 cents

It shouldn’t come to any surprise that I’ am no great artist, and heres the thing, I consider myself to be a very creative individual, with the lack of artistic skills. I couldn’t draw anything if my life depended on it. Just to show you how much of a fantastic artist I am, I’m going to showpiece some of my works of art over the past few years. All of these were made in yahoo doodle on my windows computer, unfortunately PC-BSD does not support this function, but don’t feel too bad, the cheap program has only 13 colors to chose from and just 1 paintbrush tool, sO I had to do what I could to create my greatest works of art.


Subject A: Darth Vader and Luke Skywalker

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I wasn’t responsible for drawing Luke, my friend was actually

 

the artist and did a crappier job than me if you can believe that.

 

I drew Darth Vader, and that spaceship window (no it isn’t snowing outside)

 

 

 

Subject B: Hooker Cat

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Hooker cats creation was quite random and unplanned.

 

I started off with a normal purple cat then, she became

 

Sophisticated cat, from then the whole hooker thing just escalated,

 

needless to say she’s made my life worth living.

 

 

 

 

 

Subject C: Chewbacca

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Chewbacca was created as a guess what movie this is game

 

I invented out of pure boredom. My friend couldn’t figure it out

 

after several tries, it was getting ridiculous :(

 

 

Friend : Is it Planet of the Apes

Me: WRONG!!!

 

 

 

 

Subject D: Jabba the Hut

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This was guess who this is game. My friend guessed Sad Toad.

 

Eigther he sucks at this game or I suck at drawing, or both.

 

Anyway I felt a little bad about how Princess Leia choked him to death

 

so I added a little sunshine in his life. :)

 

 

 

There is a point to all of this, I promise. I’d love to include a minimal amount of animation for my first PC-BSD video. I’ve already got the main storyline idea and I’m very excited about it, but its going to be kept secret until it’s finished. I’ve done some computer animation before, and for someone like me it is very time consuming. I did an animation project in high school, I liked to call Disco Dancing Bear, but because I was naturally retarded with drawing with the mouse, and I wanted it to come out perfect, I was the last one to have my project completed. But in the end it came out pretty cool, sadly I lost Disco Dancing bear somehow throughout the years, but he will always remain in my heart. Anyway, i’m just warning everyone, not to have high expectations on the PC-BSD Vid, Although I will try my hardest to the absolute best job I can. In short don’t be mean. :(

LUG Radio-PC-BSD @ SF

PC-BSD/FreeBSD was at Lug Radio last weekend. Unfortunately, I couldn’t make it, but here are some pics of the event.

Some of the cool peeps of PC-BSD

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here’s James Ix’s systems web developer. James, In case you’re wondering little Beastie is adjusting well in his new home with me and my cats :)

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James and Denise (Marketing Director of Ix systems) She’s super cool at coordinating these events.

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James and Matt having a blast at the booth

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Here is our awesome the PC-BSD/FreeBSD booth at Lug Radio. Notice all the cool stuff, including the new Edison Edition of PC-BSD, little Beastie, Diet Coke, FreeBSD CD’s and FreeBSD & Beastie boxers to the right.

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KDE and PC-BSD

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FreeBSD girl at the booth :)

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Hey! who’s blog site is that on the left?

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Click here

The most trashed i’ve ever been :(

sO starts the story of my lovely evening that ultimately left me waking up in a hotel room the next morning, unaware of how I even got there in the first place. sO let me just start by saying I am not the kind of person who loves getting wasted. I am a very conservative drinker, apart from the fact that I rarely drink in the first place, when I do drink, I only drink till I get to a cool buzz going and then I am able to stop myself, that way no one gets hurt and everyone is happy.This time it snuck up on me pretty badly, I never saw it coming. So this is how it all started. I arrive at Jillian’s billiards at around 9ish met up with Matt, Denise and few others and everything was going great, however, I was feeling super hungry and started getting a headache because I hadn’t eaten since breakfast. This is where my first mistake took place.

 

Lesson #1 Never consume anything before drinking. I knew this was a bad idea from the start but I assumed id be fine and control my drinking. boy was I wrong. After I got back from eating. I used my free drink card, courtesy of Google to get myself my very first drink. I was having a blast meeting new people, and was feeling pretty sociable. My next mistakes were ones that occurred throughout the night and I learned

 

Lessons #2,3,4,5,6 (or however many drinks I actually had)
Never underestimate the potency of watered down bar drinks, they will still accomplish the job of getting you hammered.

I couldn’t help but feel that the Red Bull Vodkas they kept giving me had tons of ice and felt pretty watered down, I could hardly taste the liquor. sO I figured a couple more wouldn’t kill me. Big Mistake:(.

 

Lesson #7 Never trust intoxicated people to calculate a reasonable tip.
Google’s free drink tickets ran out so quick, Matt picked up the tab for the our group and the KDE gang. So towards the end of the night, Matt asked me to tip on a pretty hefty bar tab, $800 to be exact. Geesh. At that point I didn’t have the mental capacity to make calculations of such a scale, so I went with Plan B, hmm well lets see, our waitress seemed quite unpleasant and rude, taking advantage of poor drunk fools, and surprising us with an $800 bar tab. So I figured that $10, seemed pretty reasonable. That didn’t work out so well, Matt looked at me like I was nuts. So finally I added another 0 to the $10. Anyway thats one of the last memories I’ve had. Next thing I knew I woke up in a hotel room smelling of vomit, Pretty disgusting. Apparently, I puked allover the hotel room floor, not the proudest moment of my life let me tell you. The next morning I woke confused and wondering how I even got there in the first place, not to mention, I felt the absolute worst I’ve ever felt. Pre-puking and passing out was the absolute best and I had tons of fun. Post puking and passing out not so fun. :(. sO whenI finally got home in the morning, a pleasant surprise awaited me. My cats were gone. I looked at my window and noticed the screen was popped out. Those little bastards decided to go out for an adventure. I was in no condition whatsoever to go looking for them, I had the worst splitting headache in the world and was still drunk, sO I crashed out and didn’t recover enough to function like a normal human being until 5Pm. Soon after, my cats came home one by one accompanied by a couple of mooching fleas. They got a nice flea bath as punishment. ;)

 

Anyway here are some pics of that night at Jullians.

 

Us at Julian’s at the earlier part of the night.

 

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Us at the table. just getting started with our drinks :)

 

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2 seconds flat. All done

 

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My cool KDE crew

 

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Just showing some Love for little Beastie, since I recently adopted him. and theres the infamous drink that did me in.

 

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Asia BSD Con 2008 @Tokyo

It was all about BSD, at the 3rd annual, Asia BSD Conference 2008 held in Tokyo Japan. Overall it was a great success for Matt Olander and the BSD team and all their efforts have definitely paid off.

 

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This way to BSD ———> :D

 

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The friendly staff at the registration desk sporting the infamous Beastie horns.

 

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Matt at the PC-BSD desk.

 

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Kris Moore (creator of PC-BSD)

 

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11:00 am show time!

 

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Matt Olander just getting warmed up for the awesome PC-BSD/ FreeBSD Presentation.

 

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PC-BSD was excited to present all the new updates the newest version of PC-BSD 1.5 has to offer.

 

Some of these include.

 

KDE 3.5.8

 

Xorg 7.3

 

New amd64 build of 1.5

 

New system update tool

 

Easy PBI installer

 

Improvements to WiFi tool

 

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I did not include all the updates, however, all the PC-BSD 1.5 Edison Edition updates can be found in detail on the PC-BSD homepage.

 

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Matt also gave BSD con a brief tutorial on how to install & upgrade, helpful tools such as PBI’s, and Gaim.

 

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Matt also included a section of our Target Market which are but are not limited to.
Windows Users

 

Linux users

 

and lazy freebsd users ;) <—– nothing wrong with that

 

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For more info about the asiabsdcon 2008 please

 

Click here

 

 

Planet-arium

Im taking a Stellar Astronomy course and its the best freaken class i’ve ever taken by far. The class takes place inside the schools Planeterium/ Planet-arium for all of us Southpark people. Anyway sO tonights class he basically showed us a preview of January 28th 2008’s 9:00 PM sky in the planet-arium dome, Basically it was like a smaller replica of the nights stars. The locations of the stars and planets were current with tonights actual nighttime stars and planets. Anyway sO he showed us with his little laser pointer the easiest star constellation and most recognizable Constellation. Orion- The hunter on the right of Orion is Taurus and you can see a sort of yellowish star called Aldebaran they call it the Eye of the Bull or something like that. Then above the horns of taurus you can see Mars.. its so bright and big you can see it clearly without any telescopes or anything. I also found Sirius the brightest star in the celestial sphere and actually pretty close to us.. only 8 light years away. While looking at Sirius I saw a comet whooshing through and it looked like it may have landed somewhere on the west side. no joke I really did. Anyway I tried to find Saturn but failed miserably… also failed at finding the Andromeda galaxy… I was going to keep trying to find it but I was all dressed in black with a black beanie and was using bonoculars and I was afraid people would think I was up to no good. Not to mention it was pretty damn cold out there. On a last note, I’ve never been able to spot a planet before and I thought it was pretty damn cool that I got to do it.

Goodbye ohh Seven

As we all know 2007 is over, and I must admit it wasn’t the easiest year for me, but at the same time I’m lucky I got to do some pretty cool stuff. I got to go to Vegas for the very first time. I finally bought my very own VW that I absolutely love to drive, I even go to take it on a road trip to LA, Hollywood and Disneyland. I got to Stop by Trashy Lingerie a popular celebrity shop; it’s somewhere I’ve wanted to go to for years, everything is hand sewn and of great quality. I also got to go see Nine inch Nails and meet Trent Reznor. I got to go see Smashing Pumpkins in a small Santa Cruz Venue, where they played for 3 hours!! And finally I got to go see my favorite band Tool in SF, the experience was totally unforgettable. So now for the new years it’s expected for people to make New Years resolutions that they won’t end up keeping. My absolute favorite top resolution people make is to get in shape. Tons of people start flooding the gyms this time of year and make it the most unpleasant crowded experience for the people who are really serious about keeping fit all year round. I’m not all about making resolutions I don’t intend to keep. Every year my resolution entails one simple concept. To become a better/wiser person than I was the previous year, and all I can hope for is that all the other things just fall into place. I am pretty optimistic about 2008. I have a lot of plans and a lot of stuff id like to accomplish. I started school up again last week and this semester I’m taking Astronomy and American Government. I am also looking into Bartending part time to make some extra money and get some extra cash flow going. I need to some extra money to support my shoe addiction.. In my spare time I will be working on a screenplay I’ve been working on for about 6 months now. And I’ll also be working on projects that I am doing for the PC-BSD team, I’m still trying to find a fresh new idea with a budget in mind of course. I guess you can say I will definitely be keeping myself busy this year and I hope for the best possible outcome.

No Country for Old Men

sO I just saw No Country for Old Men and.. gotta say I would highly recommend you go see it in theaters. I can honestly say that this is an exemplary film that inspires and motivate me to pursue the art form of directing and I really can’t say that about 97% of the movies that are out nowadays. I can’t really explain what its about in fear of spoiling it, but what I can say is that the Coen brothers managed to make this film with near contiguous perfection, however I cant say the same about the last 25 or so minute of the film. I can’t exactly say why except to say that it felt like it ended quite abruptly leaving me feeling devoid of any real satisfaction, (but this is just about the ending not the movie as a whole.) In their defense, It was a difficult ending to direct in the first place especially because they tried to stay true to the book the film was based on. The one major mistake was that they overestimated the average audiences of today, believing that the audiences would actually use their imaginations to fill in the blanks. With all that said, this should NOT deter anyone from going to go see this film, there’s a particular subtle message this film gets across thats really something to think about.

 

So this site can do a better job of giving a short summary and includes trailers too click below.

 

Click Here!!!

Curiosity Killed the Cat

I am a very curious person… my interest in astronomy started with my curiousity to find out what the size of the earth was compared to the sun. Once I found the image I was absolutely astonished by the massiveness of the sun, because it looks relatively small to us, about the size of the moon. So I started doing online research and found a bunch of shit out about the universe. And for once I started to take a second look at everything and I realized life and the universe was completely insane. For instance, We are on a miniscule spec of a planet in comparison to the sun and virtually non-existent in the massive realm of the universe. I mean does anyone else think this is completely insane, how we are even living on this very rare planet that contains life and really the universe is a dangerous unstable place and that at any moment our life could be short lived by an astronomical event. I mean I consider us to be extremely lucky to be living in a time where we can still enjoy the planet. The truth is nothing that I know of is ever eternal, the very same sun that supplies us with energy and life will also be the one to scorch the planet in its death cycle. We are just one among billions and billions of Galaxies; sure most of us already know this but, people often overlook the significance in this type of information because it isn’t really an essential part of their survival. Am I the only one that finds this stuff amazing or what? I can go on and on about this but I wont :)

Here is the sun/Earth Size Comparason in case your wondering.

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Free BSD @ Texas Update

Hi Guys,

 

Just giving you an update on LISA 2007 in Dallas Texas with Pictures :)

 

LISA

 

Acronym>>Large Installation System Administration Conference 2007

 

Here’s my good friend Matt Olander & Brett Working the very popular FreeBSD Booth sporting the Beastie horns !!

 

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Here’s Brett @ the FreeBSD Booth..

 

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Matt Olander CTO of IX Systems

 

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Booth Babes!!! Only PC-/FreeBSD gets this kind of representation ;)
Ok maybe Rackspace does too.
Linux Extinct

 

For more information on Lisa 2007 please visit

 

http://www.usenix.org/events/lisa07/tech/

 

I’ll be sure to update you guys on the upcoming events.. stay tuned.

 

PC-BSD BABE

Just a few reasons why I <3 PC-BSD

Hi Guys,

I can hardly wait for Fridays release of Da Vinci version 1.4.1 The awesome thing about PC -BSD is that not only is it a stable and reliable operating system, but it’s also virtually spy ware and virus free, so that you spend less time + money buying virus related programs. When I started using PC-BSD, I wasn’t too sure id like it because I’ve been a windows user for many years, but its so user friendly the transition was very fluid and it took me no time to adjust. It almost felt like this was an operating system designed for me, I mean how could I not love it. With that said I’m very much looking forward to the release of Da Vinci Version 1.4.1. on Friday the 16th. For those of you have Version 1.4 you only need to simply update the the newer version. It will be available for download at http://www.pcbsd.org/

Post Numero Uno

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Ok first of all I wanna say that I would very much wan’t to avoid using the word blog. I highly dislike that word.. It’s kind of like nails on a chalkboard when I hear it or say it. Howard Stern said it most accurately when he said it sounds like the sound youd make giving someone a BJ…. sO instead i’ll use old fashioned words like web log because it sounds a lot better to me. enough about that. I’m sure everyone already knows how much that word sucks. anyway, i’m excited to start this site and be able to be honest and real with myself, because this is one of the only places I get to do that (in my writing)< that is

K tune in next time for my next random web log. (I promise it wont suck next time)

Your girl,

PCBSD BABE :)



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